Where are the boundries?

Friends.... you love your friends and will do anything for them. Calls late at night to chat, doing things above and beyond to help, dragging yourself out of your bed even if you are ill to help, smiling when your down as you do not wish to drag your friends down with you... and then you do it.... you get pissed.... and get physical. Then the lines get blurred. You have the chat about being friends with benefits and you think that's great. Then the going above and beyond gets expected.... your still expected to be mates and talk about mate things when your wanted and be helpful when your wanted as well as being physical when your wanted. It's great at times as it boosts your confidence, makes you feel happier in your skin, gets you out of your normal routine. The physical gets better and better and you think maybe just maybe things can progress... then you get a slap in the face that reminds you that you will never be the slim, tanned and you will never be the demanding head case that is expected. You will always be the token girl in the group of men who is asked to the pub the drink pints and play pool. You will get invited to weekends away camping but then there will be the new slap 'can you just'.... you know what no I can't. You want me come and get me! I am a bloody lovely person and I am a great catch for anyone so if it is no emotions you want then it is no emotion you will get!! I can love so much and give so much but at the same time I can also be an ice queen. Yes I will smile on the outside but to save pain I will be cold on the inside. I will just hold out for the person who wants to feel that warmth and no it will not be a girl! :) So Mr right who ever you are hold on to your heart as its mine to keep warm!

Why?

There is plenty I could type on here but in all honesty I do not have the energy. I have had enough of being the happy one and the one who is strong and right now I am just the one who is fed up of being single and wanting to have someone to talk to or not talk to depending on the case! So hey this is me fed up!